Friday, August 12, 2011
I can't make the sound but I was saying Massage like the Thai girls do in Thailand, Maaaassssage! You know what I mean? if you do its so funny. Well I am sick as a dog and needed a massage and I went to this $100 up market non dodge one, and they said no because I was sick, saying it wasn't good for my body! what would they know I feel like crap already, how could they make me feel worse? So out of desperation of not being able to get in anywhere, like 20 phone calls and no vacanies anywhere! wtf? I gave in and went to erotic massages in the gay paper. After 2 hours he gave me a head job, saying I looked like a movie star and he would like to suck it.... normally its only a hand job. Well some people are dedicated to their work arn't they. I had visions that this guy was just a cronic cock sucker and had become a massuse just so he could do this, but I don't that is correct I think he was blown away.... by my beauty. LOL. So he said anyway. I gave him $100 even though it was only $70, and he was so shocked at my tip he gave me an Amani T Shirt still in its plastic wrapping. Now I was touched by this kindness, and asked him why he was giving me the T Shirt, and he said its too big for me and your a nice guy, have it. So I left with a 2 hour massage, a head job and an Amani t Shirt for $100, they say retailers are doing it tough because of online shopping, but maybe its because there are people giving away T-Shirts and free head?
Ran into Usher today, my hot black guy lay from last year and he asked me out on a date to see Jersy Boys tonight, I am sick so said no, he then said it would be our first date, of many, call me, lets date. His timing is terrible, a palm reader told me I will always be single last week, and I feel like it is true, I don't want a relationship especially with him right now. I through the dog a bone anyway because he is so hot and a nice person too, and something about him turns me into a raging fuck machine.
Some one else last week ask me to date him and I told him to go fuck himself...... oops, but he was annoying and delusional, I said I want massage, not a boyfriend.... loser.
Have only had 4 lays in 2 month and 2 were with the same gay, a nice Spanish guy, at such a slow rate I could turn straight or get a girlfriend, who needs to be gay with this little sex going on.
Was walking through the supermarket and I saw the uber hot DNA cover model with his hot new trophy boyfriend, I want him so bad, but not the boyfriend, I was stalking them up and down the aisles watching them, I'm such a tragic, but at least I was semi stealth, they knew I was doing it but at least I wasn't obvious, the heart wants what the heart wants. All these grandious ideas started racing through my head as I was having the massage after seeing him such as, I'm going to make so big as a builder, I'll show him, I'll have so much money, I will be so hot, I'm going to be such a catch, I will be able to walk through that super market and people will know who I am and want ME, and I will be able to cherry pick that guy off his boyfriend with one look, one lingering gaze and he will dump him for me. Crazy stuff, but I entertained it for a while, because I am not and A type personality at all, but I have a few in my life, and today I snapped, I am sick of being bossed around by huge egos in my life, I want to make other fuckers dance to my tune for a change. And I think I am going to for a bit.
Finally had the courage to text the hot Italian after I got his number in June, and he has given up on Sydney and moved! had his heart broken to many times and left. He was so dismissive to me, I was a little hurt, but hey he didn't have the balls to make it in Sydney, the least romance focused city in the world people are saying now, so I guess its not about me, its his own pile of hurt.