Monday, August 29, 2011

Going, Going, Slipping, Hopefully not Gone

"it wouldn't be a day dream if u believed in me" was the lyric playing in an old jazz song at the pub I was having lunch at. My moejoe is MIA, that little gay spark that makes life worth living has deserted me, but is it a gay thing or just getting older? I thought my lust for life was a gay specific thing but maybe it's just a young person thing, all I know is I have more fun than Most people around me normally, but lately ..... Where has it gone? I have decided I have been working too hard and I need to chill out for a few days and see if my moejoe returns.... Let's see. I bought beautiful gorgeous linen on the weekend, is there anything nicer than snuggling in beautify sheets and doonas ? Me thinks not

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Accidental stalker



I have no problem being called a stalker, even though some of my friends deserve the title more than me due to their Facebook / Stalkerbook efforts and general google stalking they do on guys they like/ hate. Any way yesterday driving home DNA cover modle was stopped at traffic lights as I drove past. I tried to look at him in my rear view mirror in heavy traffic as I drove back to the city from bondi but no luck but as I parked in East Sydney to get a massage he parked behind me! Fate you say. I jumped out and started walking down the ally way and he followed, then he stopped and went in his house ! I know where he lives, works and what car he drives.... With out even trying!

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

life.......



life is strange.
I had nothing worth saying the last week as I am still in shock from my horrible new about the out look of my health / life from last week.  I was going to blog that every aspect of my life has turned to shit and is going down hill at a rate of knots, but tonight...... have I turned a corner.... I'm not sure.
I got back on Gaydar after 7 months for a look and some one invited me to the opening of a new gay Sauna in Sydney.  this really is a once in a 10 year event, so I was very exicted to go, and it is in a new gay area, nothing gay ghetto about this area, very wog working class.  my favorite.  I went and I really was the only gay in the village, I was the only one there! and it has an out door spa facing the street in a busy shopping strip and you get into the spa naked in view of the street! strange, very strange.  Any way when I was there, the photo above is on the front cover of SX and this is the guy I was partying with last October (Sex & Death), if you read my past blogs I met him at a party and really hit it off with him, but never knew his name (well I couldn't remembered his name, i was very drunk) JEZ SMITH is the answer, and he is the photographer off Next Top Model Australia.  He is so cute in real life, and polite, I hope I run into him again, and if you read this Jez, say hi! XOXO


In other funny news my worker is flying off for a photo shoot in the sun with a famous photographer.... lucky bitch, while I stay in cold Sydney and fret about life.... but he is well conected because of his looks and modeling work and to give you an example, it went to his house and Jessica Malboy was sitting on his lounge, because they are friends now apparently... cool, I like her, and today Zoe Badwin was on the radio and I said "I love her" and he said, "I don't know her, no hang on I yes I do, I was one of her back up dancers at Home Night club"... ok cool you don't even know her but you danced for her.... cool.  Any way he was also in the DNA pool party photo shoot and knows the cover model I have a crush on... aparently the cover model was after him... any way DNA cover model drove past my house this afternoon and he is a builder too! how hot is that!  He is in this photo but im not saying which one, you can bearly see him.



Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Ring Tone

This is my ring tone at the moment, if you hear it next to you,  might be me!  I likde it before this week and it has Miss Connie from Sneaky Sound System singing the female vocals on it, but this classy, cool pissed off chick in this clip is about how angry I am tonight!  Scary....

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Sad face

Shitty shitty day and week. I don't have HIV but I nearly may as well have, I have just been told I have chronic lung disease, And the doctor just dropped it into a conversation like i already knew, i didn't, it explains why I get sick sooo often and serverly, but now it means it's not a bad phase, this is going to be my life... And future, great! I didn't get down about the news, but last night when my mum said " looks like you should move into one of those homeless shelters for men, cause u can't work" I was only just out of hospital and still running a fever and she said that! Super bitch! I can't believe what an evil whore I have for a mother..... If i could cry I would but I'm just so angry at her response to my bad news!


I feel as tricked and shocked as poor Drew in this scene



And I feel as sad as this song  :-(

Friday, August 12, 2011

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Why did I get Married?



No peeps, not me, gays can't get hitched yet remember, and no I haven't had a drunken Vagas moment and done the moon walk down the isle with a clam.  I am working with a gorgous lebo plumber and I am in love.  He is so nice and so hot.  He has a sexy little belly and golden skin, and oh so flirty, kind and touchy feely.  He was in my Jeep the other day and he said to me "Cassius, why did I get married? I don't hate my wife or kids, but why? why did I do it?, all I do is work, and I would rather work than see them or spend time with them.  Why did I do it?  Now I know I like him, but I think I think he was asking me to be a tour guide to alternative lifestyles, and I'm up for it.  Yes he is married but..... you can't make someone cheat, he either wants to try it with me or not.  So I said to him " Mate i'm a pragmatised, I don't like relationships and I like sex, the gay world works for me, oh and I think guys are hot."  I could see the cogos turning, hes thinking about what it would be like to play with me.  So my next plan is 1.  We go to the same gym, Fitness first (the evil empire) so I am going to invite him to work out with me.  He does have a belly after all.  Gym change rooms, saunas and showers.....mmmm.  Second plan, ask him if he likes massages..... who doesn't, then either give him one at my house or we go to a place where we get naked together.... nice.  Wish me luck.
Ps. censes night last night, I home every one didn't put down the religions they were born into, if they aren't into them anymore, it gives the christian lobby groups more power in parliment.  So for the first time I wasn't part of the other evil empire (Catholic) I was secular huminist instead, a big deal for me.



Monday, August 1, 2011

Good Day

I have just won 5 Cafes to design and build around Sydney and it will be filmed for TV.  Can't say which program, but should be on TV by Christmas. An excellent day! yay.