Thursday, September 13, 2012

The Fattie Stratagie



To get you up to speed the guy I was seeing, lets call him ramadan guy, my friends do, didn't come through, he never remade contact, which was harsh and nasty and would have been painful except around the end of ramadan I had a week of super hot fucks, the hottest of which, is in the top three hottest guys I have ever been with, and is in my top 20 hottest guys in Sydney.
We had been chatting on Grindr every night for three weeks and he kept booty calling me late on Sunday nights, I kept saying no, I finaly gave in and am I glad I did.  We fucked from 1:30 am on Monday morning through to 7:30 am that morning!  We had both blown at least 7 times and we had amazing sex.  He then ignored me for a few days, and I thought he was the type of guy I thought he was.  He then remade contact and we had a proper date the next week and I slept over on a Monday night.  We have great sex and intamacy, but he was not friendly or pleasant out of bed.  Not sure what to make of him, I thougth he was an hot arse hole, and I had no idea why he was fucking around with me, looking as over weight as I am atm.  We had a our first fight when I asked him to show some commitment.  We got over it and he came back stronger.  I had my brothers hugh fuck off mansion in the city all last weekend and we fucked all over his house all weekend.  I saw the first sign of attactment from him if ever so weak.  In lots of ways he is the best guy I have ever been with.  But only in some.  It took me a day and a half to process that weekend together and I came up trumps!!  I had him figured out and I was happy with what I saw.  He is one of those real trophy guys.  He told me a few things about himself which I wont repeat on here.  We text all day long every day, some times 40 or 50 a day.  We cuddle in each others arms all night long, he will never let me go, I love it.  When we do talk its interesting, but we don't talk very much.
I am so over weight at the moment 127kg!  And he used to be one Sydney's top strippers.  Huge miss match.  I know I am a nice guy, and a very decent fuck, he is bottom only.  I make a big effort with him.
So here are some of the stories I have told myself to keep myself calm while dating him.
I am a good looking guy, if I was able to loose the weight I would be more of a catch then him.
It would be nice if we worked out then I could honestly say he liked me before I was hot.
He told me is very impressed with me, and impressed that I put up with his High Matience ways, including coking off his head the first night we met, not that he would addmitt it for 3 weeks.
Last week we were up to a stage where we were playing a game called " You pretend im not fat and Ill pretend you are not an arse hole".  It works for us.  Not that we called it that, its just what I think was going on.
He motivates me, Ive been to the gym every day for a week and he is a carb nazi, so he helps me with my diet as well, only when I ask for help.
I asked him to show me a bit more possitive feed back, he told me he liked me and to work out in my own head that he did.  It took a day, but then I got it.  He does like me.  Fucking and sleep over is his way of showing love, I do it verbaly, he doesnt.
He is being clever, I am one of the best catches in Sydney, but I am over weight, maybe he can see that, and is a good enough guy to help be become the guy I have always wanted to be.  He does love me, he can see I don't love myself and is helping me become the guy that I can love too.  I am impressed because he is prepare to stick around for a work in progress, not after someone who is perfect already.
I am so happy.  Life is so good.