Mistakes I've Made

I came to a realization yesturday that I have had too much sex and not enough love.  Not sure why, not sure how to fix it.  Not sure why I only just realized it.  Not sure if I will keep feeling this way.  Why I have I only cared about sex and not love?  And am I right to think that some of my problems come from not having love in my life?

Bunnings' God

They are not always there, some days there are no hot tradies at all, but today was a Stella day, a super hot masculine tanned either Greek or Lebo construction worker. I got a bit stalkerish on him and followed him up and down the aisles and waited out the front to see whatt car / truck he drove. He had branding on his shirt but no phone number, I have just realize I need shirts with phone numbers on them, who know who might feel the need to dial my digits when they see me. God knows i would have called him today.

The All Black

The Rugby World Cup is on in NZ and probably due to it being on the TV in the pub where I was having a drinking with an ex, her one and only one night stand in her life, who happened to be with this lovely man above came up.  She had just ran away from LA from a nasty ex there and decided to go home with this hunk, who even though she goes for the All Blacks in theory, she had no idea of who he was.  Later she found out and made the mistake of telling one friend who she swore to secrecy.  This friend then had her engagement party on the Gold Coast and my friend walked into a room of Gold Coast Rugby fans, who all gathered round her and told her what a ledgend she had been for sleeping with him!   Even the grandma was hi fiveing her.  She was mortified, that everyone knew.  And now she made the mistake of telling me in the middle of a sex drought with nothing to write about!  His name is Luke Mcalister and she says that he was the best shag of her life, 4 times in one night and it was hot and heavy and great.  So one degree of sex seperation, I used to date a girl who fucked him!  I met up with her because I am bored.  I'm not attracted to girls, just bored with guys, I would date a girl again now, just out of sheer bordem, for something new to do.  I think its due to Grindr, it turns up so many potentials so quickly that the thrill of the new guy disappears, it becomes very same same so quickly, its like having someone elses whole dating life squashed into a month.


 

Just because

The Help

Just saw "the help" with My very black worker. We had a great time down the front laughing and giggling. It's a great movie about breaking down racial prejudice, sad and funny at the same time. Any way we got up and left as the credits rolled and the lights were on and every one saw it was two gay guys one white one black, and I heard the whole audience go silent and gasp slightly as if to imply how akward, a black and white couple watching this, what a poster for modern tolerant Australia.

Just had a really strong interview for a $200,000 plus job. Don't have it in the bag yet but things are looking good, it would keep me and my workers busy till Christmas.

Calvin Klein Decliner

What the heart wants continues to amaze. Today my worker told me that he was the Calvin Klein ad for 2009.  I had asked him which country he had got his CK's from as the writing looked different to mine, and from my ones from LA, and he said " I was given these when I was doing the shoot for CK, so I guess Australia?"  Later I asked him he was cuddly as a joke because he might have to sleep at my house some nights, and he said yes he is very cuddly and he would love to cuddle with me. Ck model wants to cuddle me and i don't care because I still want the hot apprentice, weird hey.

Humble Pie

I just wrote a funny post last night but my fucking new laptop won't let me post, so here I am on my iPhone again. Last night I hooked up with one of the plumbers apprentices, he is cute and straight and knows both, in short a recipe for a broken heart. Yes I have one today, I told the truth and told him that I like him, a gay boy in love with a straight boy it's a sad song as old as poor people going hungry. I'm licking my wounds, and sent him a text.

Did u get sick last night from the pizza I was so sick

 No I slept like a baby lion

King of the jungle

King of the jungle baby

Lol baby ? Is that a term of endearment or other?

 No reply so I wrote I'm off to the beach for sun!
 Nice day for a swim He says
 ..... Tbc What am u supposed to do, walk away and denie my feelings, or hope he is cool enough to play with me with out it messing with his head about who is? I'm no gay recruiter I want him straight just flexible around me.