Thursday, April 11, 2013

Club Training



I am blessed with 5 beautiful female friends with beautiful voices, one of them lives in Canberra and today we rehearsed all day two different sets for her to perform at my new club.  She was totally amazing.  I am actually very excited how far we could go.  Her voice and my brains.  Her song choice was terrible, with out me she wouldn't go very far, and I own the club I can promote her very well.

Ive been practicing living in the present and surrendering my ego to the present moment.  Apparently this where all gift and graces come from, surrendering your will about what you want  the future to be, and just living in the now is where all happiness comes from.  Been battling letting go of my Bondi Boy, but I surrendered and this morning I had the most beautiful dream where he was happy and had joy in his heart.  This was the one thing I wanted for him, and I was upset that I wasn't able to help him find it.  But I think this dream was my gift, I could finally see what he would be like with joy  and happiness, and I think now that I have see it, I can help him find it.  Not sure how yet, but then today his drug dealer phoned me and said "im in Canberra lets hang out" If I can help her change her life, than maybe she will help him, I hope this is true.  I am probably the only friend she has who doesn't use her to supply drugs, this should make her trust me I think, and look to see where I get my happiness from, and maybe copy me.

I told a very hot Leb Architect in Lebanon that he can come and live with me, to see If we want to live together permantly.  Scary, because we are just facebook friends we have never met, but life is short time to through caution to the wind, I have no dating option here in Canberra, and I am very happy here, so I can help a gay arab have a chance at life with me and in Australia.

Seeing a therapist, and she thinks all the catholic guilt bull shit I was brought up with is making me sick, will be interesting to see if this true.

Came out to my mother and she hasn't talked to me in two weeks.  I might be homeless in two weeks, but I don't worry, I just stay in the present and trust something will work out.

Ive been incredibly sick for 6 weeks, so I have just been meditating on the pain and practising surrendering to the moment, not much else I could do.
Been reading heal your self, the spiritual meaning of illness, interesting read.  Its interesting pondering that all physical illness are related to the spiritual and emotional world,

I think perhaps my biggest news is that I have reprogramed myself from thinking the world is a bad miserable place, as I was taught as a child, will be interesting to see if this belief was causing my illness.... 3 years of illness.

4 comments:

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