If You've Got Nothing Worth Saying Then....

Keep your mouth shut.  ....... Yes I know the saying, and no I am not going to follow my own advice, that would be toooo sensible but I will give a pre- warning, this aint going to be one of my best blogs.  My f.f.f.f.f.unk continues, my disolusionment malise draws on, all I know is if what goes up must come down, then what goes down must lift eventually, and soon maybe?  Picked up my new Jeep yesterday, HOT! I have been fanging about Sydney, loving it, and as Kimmy would say, "I'm loving myself sick in this"  But I am going to tell you something that reveals more about who I really am than anything else I can pin point.  It goes a little something like this.  A new car, is great and nice and layed a good foundation for a feeling and a belief that things agoing to get better.  I didn't exactly work hard to get a new car, it was kind of a gift, but I certainly did go to hell and back to get it and deserve it.  But I think it is trauma, that has me thinking "what will go wrong next? will I drink drive and write it off and void my insurance? will I kill someone? will it break down and cost me money?"  So many bad things have happened in the last 4 years, and my 20's in general, that it feels very unsafe to believe in a better life.  But that isn't what my point is, my true self is this.  Today I had one of those magical days, lunch at Balmoral Bathers by the sea. 


I then got to go shopping at Ikea, one of my favorite past times, but I was being paid $80 an hour to do it, and spending other peoples money to do their kitchen! doesn't much better than that.  I then raced into DFO and bought a pair of work jeans, Polo jeans on sale for $45, HOT!  Buying designer clothes to ware as work ware, makes me so happy, it is like my favorite thing ever.  I get very dirty, digging ditches, painting, silicon, cement render, so every one normally wares ugly cheap clothes, but my hot straight rich builder friends opened my eyes to the fun of wareing designer clothes to the job site.  No matter how hot you are King Gee will always make you look like a pleb.  Ware Guess T Shirts, or Amarni Exchange and G Star or Amarni Jeans, get a little bit of paint on them or silicon, and you will suddenly see how good it looks.  If you have never seen a hot tradie in designer threads it is truely jaw dropping, its something to do with the mix between nice fun boy clothes being worn to get the job done on sex men, that tripples their sex appeal.  I see a few of these hot tradies about in Canberra and Sydney, they look like they have just come back from a holiday on Mykinos, sucked a few cocks while they were high on E's, have girl friends back at home, and have that hard tough edge thats lots of working class guys have.